Actually managed to get whitelisted for Geometry Dash custom level use...

Although I already tried that probably before even 2.1 release

Years have passed, I probably only had like 3 musics completed, with only 1 published. Now I have 20 completed, with only 12 published

Back then, you had to get RobTop himself to whitelist, so I immediately gave up and never bothered to do that.

Until roughly 1-2 years ago when I heard that you can get whitelisted through elder mods instead and attempted again.

Of course they'd be overwhelmed with hundreds of replies, so after DMing literally every elder mods once, and then the second time several weeks after, I gave up again and DM'd every elder mods again when 2.2 teaser appeared in my recommended (that was few months ago)

Yeah, no luck, but then I noticed that one of the elder mods (Hado), created a google form and spreadsheet in order to keep track of everything. The use of google form was an excellent choice, I only had to submit the form and wait, that's it

And finally whitelisted after years, and even better that it happened before 2.2 release

Well but idk, I don't think I'd return to GD even after 2.2 release, I already have another game to enjoy

I have been inactive in the past two years due to censorship

Why?

The government blocked Newgrounds under the excuse of "Healthy internet". So in the past two years, I've been using VPN to access this site, the problem is that the connection is so slow that any attempts of uploading anything will always fail (music, animation)

So there's really not much way to post my work, and I finally became inactive for two years.

I only published my work on youtube in that period

Today, I found another way to go around that restriction while not sacrificing too much internet speed, and that is DNS (stupid me). Which allows me to upload without failing at all.

I've uploaded several of my works in bulk, you can go check my page

So now, I've become active again (if anybody actually cares)

Look... if you've looked at my previous posts then you know i've been screaming all over the place out of frustration.

And no... nothing changed, i am really lacking someone to vent all my frustration out, i wanna' talk my frustration away.

Heh...

I never thought they would call my OC as "Dolls" like a freakin' lifeless toy used to entertain kids for the sake of "Comedy"

I never thought that my direction has been forced to go "Funny, for kids, comedy" kind of stuff just because i created a comedy animation that make them excited, i should've avoided my parents from getting excited if i knew they're gonna' deplete my motivation each seconds with the same demoralizing question "Adsense, when will it finish".

My next take is to make garbage animation just to satisfy my parents, while sneaking my real project slowly and surely because letting them know only yield the same question "when will it finish" and they're gonna' slap some censorship all over the place. You won't see my garbage animations here, just see my youtube.

There have been multiple scrapped project just because i lost the motivation for it, one was a fight animation i crave for but they're not impressed, they're just asking "when will it finish"

It's like you're filling your car (animation project) with fuel (motivation) while a moron keeps demanding "ADSENSE" while stepping over the fuel hose so hard that the fuel barely come out. Now you're riding on a barely fueled car (Half-baked animation)

Well... now, i got a job as an animator on a educational animation youtube channel and i'm happy because i can animate things, if i control the storyboard, i make sure i am motivated to do it, well... i managed to get some combat scenes in there and i'm happy replaying it.

Everytime i come and stay at their office, i can feel the freedom, i can do anything without some shitty comments of "ADSENSE IS DROPPING!", i got a job and i got my own income, my animation is what i WANT, well... nothing changed, they just want to keep pushing me for adsense despite my own income... well... it was fun animating at their office while it lasts... until CoViD-19 strikes...

Look... none of my videos affect adsense revenues, they have very low performance rating on my channel and they are nothing compared to my old videos that yield 7 million views. I don't care, i just want to animate, i already got a job, i already animate for money, now CAN I PLEASE animate for satisfaction?!

Forced at home, still doing my job at home as usual, but i don't really have the freedom to animate my own video.

Ok... now that i will sneak some of my willful projects under the radar to make sure they don't ruin it with some censorship bullshit that makes it kid-friendly, i am making it now and... well... i'm happy doing it now, just gotta' hope they don't notice it.

Also, i am very comfortable with my little brother about my animation, i usually tell my little brother about my animation, he's very relatable, he even gave me an idea that i like and ended up getting good number of views though (which also satisfies my parents' adsense demand), unlike my parents... i really want to shut up about animations when i talk to my parents.

Well... imma' go back animate some sneaky project... see ya.

**** it!

My animation is getting cringier and cringier because you force me to do the voice acting

I AM UNCOMFORTABLE WITH THAT!!!!!

Asking a frickin' 18 years old animator to voice a... father-like figure??? well... YOU ARE MY FATHER?! WHY DON'T YOU DO IT IF IT'S A MATCH?!!!!! Why don't you voice that character for me Instead of throwing out obvious suggestions, you GET FRICKIN' MAD AND LASH YOUR ANGER TO THE ENTIRE FAMILY JUST BECAUSE YOU DON'T WANT TO DO VOICE ACTING?!!!! WHAAT?!!!! Do you feel what i feel? if yes, why don't you understand me?!

I'VE VOICED ALL OF MY MALE CHARACTERS, and you COMPLAIN ABOUT HAVING TO VOICE TWO DIFFERENT CHARACTERS? THERE WERE THE SAME CHARACTER BUT IN DIFFERENT AGE? (20-60)

You keep comparing me to my friend that is already a popular animator, and that's it... you're not comparing me to anything else, only one, how subjective... the fun part is that popular animator has some... let's see... something that you don't allow me to do because it's... what? mystic? sci-fi? violence? adult joke?... HAHAH!!! But you're asking me to be EQUAL to him!

Quit with the so called "Animator should do everything, animation, story, effects, voice, music, audio", because i am an ANIMATOR!!! NOT A VOICE ACTOR!!! (WHAT? YOU WANT AN ANIMATOR TO LEARN HTML5 PROGRAMMING NOW?!)

**** YOU!!! **** YOU!!!!

You have anger issues.

Dad... you're disgracing my characters. I hate it. I don't make my characters to be a mere comedy subjects and voiced by a wrong person, they have their own story and i know what they sound like.

Good thing i've made characters with silent personality, one that doesn't talk because of dark past, and one can only talk through subtext because of genetic anomaly.

(and i'm planning to use them more often to avoid voice acting)

The fun part is that you forbid me from using subtitles to talk, it must have a VOICE in it.

EDIT : I think i'm going to upload musics and arts here, i'm only proud of those two for now. My animation is... screw it, they will blam them all, right? hahah!

First animation = 3 Months

Very minimal parent intervention. I am very proud of that animation, and it also gets daily third and nominated for best animation of the month

Second Animation = 1 Month

Significant parent intervention. Story kinda controversial and joke could only be understood by several people, barely proud of it.

Third Animation = 1 Month

High Parent Intervention. Only motivated on animating head turning, that's why it's smooth. Barely proud of it

Fourth Animation = 1 Month

Longer animation was canceled due to parents starting to RUSH me, then they disliked it and asked to start over. I rushed and created it. This time, i stopped using voice due to change of script and a possible increase of parent intervention (I can't keep asking people to do voice acting unless i can pay them). They ordered me to make animations in 1 WEEK. I am NOT PROUD of the animation. Duration now cannot reach 1 minute, i refrain from posting it from newgrounds due to high blam risk

Fifth Animation : 1 Week

Starts using text, duration is below 1 minute. Already finished, but parents criticize it, so i took the video down and revise it. They asked me to use my voice rather than texts, i asked them back, they refuse to be voice actor which is something they FORCE ME TO DO. Using my own voice will give me CRINGE extreme enough to make start twitching (People often cringe when hearing their own voice) and CRINGE itself destroys my motivation a LOT. Extreme parents intervention. Still NOT PROUD of the animation.

I cannot be like this, i do accept to be given a deadline of 1 month. But... 1 WEEK is just too much! And what's the worst part? THEY TAKE OVER MY ADSENSE INCOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I listened to NG response about my previous post, none of them worked out especially my dad is a short-tempered person, telling what i feel or arguing something to him will make him mad and i have to get through 2-3 hours long of intimidation.

I can't move out if i can't secure my income yet.

Why??? Why do my parents have to MONITOR me everytime i do my animation?!!!!

It bugs me and demoralizes me a LOT. Which makes me think that animating at late night is better than others because they're sleeping!

They keep asking "How much percent is your animating progress?" nearly every day!

But they get angry when i tell them what i feel.

WHHHY?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I know they have good intention, but they're oblivious to what they're actually doing to me

I would call them "Motivation Destroyer"

How do i solve this?

Still making... thx school for extending it up to two or three months...

R.U.D.E

My name doesn't mean i'm rude,

It's just an acronym.

I finally came here after a local program issued by department of IT blocked newgrounds long enough to piss me off.