Look... if you've looked at my previous posts then you know i've been screaming all over the place out of frustration.

And no... nothing changed, i am really lacking someone to vent all my frustration out, i wanna' talk my frustration away.

Heh...

I never thought they would call my OC as "Dolls" like a freakin' lifeless toy used to entertain kids for the sake of "Comedy"

I never thought that my direction has been forced to go "Funny, for kids, comedy" kind of stuff just because i created a comedy animation that make them excited, i should've avoided my parents from getting excited if i knew they're gonna' deplete my motivation each seconds with the same demoralizing question "Adsense, when will it finish".

My next take is to make garbage animation just to satisfy my parents, while sneaking my real project slowly and surely because letting them know only yield the same question "when will it finish" and they're gonna' slap some censorship all over the place. You won't see my garbage animations here, just see my youtube.

There have been multiple scrapped project just because i lost the motivation for it, one was a fight animation i crave for but they're not impressed, they're just asking "when will it finish"

It's like you're filling your car (animation project) with fuel (motivation) while a moron keeps demanding "ADSENSE" while stepping over the fuel hose so hard that the fuel barely come out. Now you're riding on a barely fueled car (Half-baked animation)

Well... now, i got a job as an animator on a educational animation youtube channel and i'm happy because i can animate things, if i control the storyboard, i make sure i am motivated to do it, well... i managed to get some combat scenes in there and i'm happy replaying it.

Everytime i come and stay at their office, i can feel the freedom, i can do anything without some shitty comments of "ADSENSE IS DROPPING!", i got a job and i got my own income, my animation is what i WANT, well... nothing changed, they just want to keep pushing me for adsense despite my own income... well... it was fun animating at their office while it lasts... until CoViD-19 strikes...

Look... none of my videos affect adsense revenues, they have very low performance rating on my channel and they are nothing compared to my old videos that yield 7 million views. I don't care, i just want to animate, i already got a job, i already animate for money, now CAN I PLEASE animate for satisfaction?!

Forced at home, still doing my job at home as usual, but i don't really have the freedom to animate my own video.

Ok... now that i will sneak some of my willful projects under the radar to make sure they don't ruin it with some censorship bullshit that makes it kid-friendly, i am making it now and... well... i'm happy doing it now, just gotta' hope they don't notice it.

Also, i am very comfortable with my little brother about my animation, i usually tell my little brother about my animation, he's very relatable, he even gave me an idea that i like and ended up getting good number of views though (which also satisfies my parents' adsense demand), unlike my parents... i really want to shut up about animations when i talk to my parents.

Well... imma' go back animate some sneaky project... see ya.